PRAYER: Lord allow us to see our flaws, help us to work through what may have TRIGGERED us, strengthen our hearts and minds.
VERSE OF THE DAY: Romans 13:4
These past few years have been very trying for me. As I allow God to bring me through so that I may tell my story, I found myself slip into anger. Anger can be such a strong, powerful, and harmful emotion if not careful. It had been a while since I had felt that level of anger.
Something TRIGGERED this emotion. It was because I realized the ultimate truth. It was because I relived, in seconds, my life over again. It was placed on repeat in which I swore to myself that I would never let it happen again. Yet my sweet spirited self has done so again. I had fallen into a trap that took me years to come out of. I not only was angry but I was hurt and disappointed.
In life you can desire something different within a new chapter of your life but if there is a conflict of interest at the door before you get there than you must take caution. In my case, there are still things that God has to work in and through me. It made me so angry that yes even I can still feel the burning sensation within my chest as I arose this morning.
Yet, I must maintain my composure and still perform in the appropriate manner. Yet there is one thing I will not do. I will not pretend that I am not a human being with emotions and feelings. I will not pretend like things that people do and say don’t push my buttons at times. Although I know how to handle those things now, there are still times when I must learn how to handle the things that trigger my emotions. Sometimes it means you have to let go of people and things when stepping into a new chapter of life.
And yesterday must have been my test in which I completely failed. I must work at certain things. Anger is actually not what I need to work on but it is what TRIGGERED my anger that I need to pray and ask God to help me address. When I get angry there is no happy medium or shades of gray. There is a woman who has been broken, abused, stripped down to nothing, who still must share her heart and scars with others. I honestly don’t know who will read this and I don’t really know whose life it would impact but my prayer is for you to have a better understanding of who you are in Christ.
Take a moment to understand the human side of Christ and know that Christ is with you. He knows exactly how you feel. Ask Him to send you the Holy Spirit, which is the divine side of Christ, into your heart and mind. Allow him to work through your flaws with you. Allow the Holy Spirit to take complete control of your wheel. Jesus will take the wheel and walk you through what you need in your life. Have patience with Christ, with man, and with yourself. So be empowered as you work through the things that may have TRIGGERED you. Know that Christ will help you get through your human flaws.